A few days ago it hit me like a 100 watt lightbulb going on. I am not a teacher.
Since the age of about 6 this is all I have ever seen myself being. OK, maybe there were those few months in the late 80s that I thought I could be a lawyer. But I didn’t. I became a teacher. I became a damn good teacher.
I started rough like most of us, fumbling my way through the first couple of years, learning about the difference between teacher education and really teaching. I made mistakes, I learned, I developed, I grew. I started to mentor.
I moved to a new country and felt like I was starting learning all over again. Everything was new, but I was a good teacher so I kept on growing, and learning, and trying new things and stopping old things and getting better. I blended what I knew and did before with this new knowledge and experience. I still made mistakes and worked from there. I mentored some more. I took a Master’s degree in administration.
I moved back to Canada and became a VP. I still had a classroom, still made mistakes in both jobs, but I kept on learning about a new province, new students and their needs, new communities, new curriculum, new strategies, new best practices. I felt like the strongest teacher I’d ever been. I felt inspired by the leadership role that I’d added to being a teacher.
I became a principal. I still took opportunities to get in classrooms and teach “guest units”, do projects, model, demonstrate, do my thing. Show that I was good at my thing. At the same time I was adapting to the role of principal, figuring out (like a new teacher) the difference between administrator education and the real job. There were great, invigorating challenges and heartbreaks. There were uplifting successes and frustrations. There was still a lot of growth and still a good deal of failure. I could see where I needed to develop skills as a leader. I could see areas where my teachers could learn, grow and develop and I continued to learn as much as I could.
But last week it hit me. I am not a teacher anymore. I am a principal. One of the roles of a principal is to be an instructional leader, and I thought for a long time that meant continuing to be a master teacher. But it doesn’t. It means helping others to be their best, not being the best. Light goes on.
It’s just like a great hockey player who becomes a coach. That player could be the best on the ice, but once they move into the coaching role, it’s not their job to be the best player on the ice anymore. Any great coach is obviously still invested in the success of the team and their players’ growth. They will get to know their players, study strategy and new techniques not only in their sport but in leadership, and coaching. They will work hard to bring out the best in others.
So am I no less committed to learning all that I can about research into how kids learn as I was when I was a teacher. But now I get to dig more into how adults learn, how change occurs, how to bring out the best in staff and students. But I don’t need to KNOW it all or DO it all in a classroom. I will support, motivate, encourage, point in the right direction, connect, provide perspective, ask questions, listen, resource, advocate, facilitate and participate. I will ask those I work with for feedback and and listen to them so that I can keep on learning and growing.
I am not the best teacher. But I will continue learning to be the best principal I can be.